2013/02/28

Though We Cannot Conceive of an Undreamt Thing, We Know to Our Cost How the Dreamt Cloud Crumbles. or: Egoslavian High Holy Day Eve



LIFE CYCLE OF COMMON MAN

Howard Nemerov

Roughly figured, this man of moderate habits,
This average consumer of the middle class,
Consumed in the course of his average life span
Just under half a million cigarettes,
Four thousand fifths of gin and about
A quarter as much vermouth; he drank
Maybe a hundred thousand cups of coffee,
And counting his parents’ share it cost
Something like half a million dollars
To put him through life. How many beasts
Died to provide him with meat, belt and shoes
Cannot be certainly said.
                                     But anyhow,
It is in this way that a man travels through time,
Leaving behind him a lengthening trail
Of empty bottles and bones, of broken shoes,
Frayed collars and worn out or outgrown
Diapers and dinnerjackets, silk ties and slickers.

Given the energy and security thus achieved,
He did . . . ? What? The usual things, of course,
The eating, dreaming, drinking and begetting,
And he worked for the money which was to pay
For the eating, et cetera, which were necessary
If he were to go on working for the money, et cetera,
But chiefly he talked. As the bottles and bones
Accumulated behind him, the words proceeded
Steadily from the front of his face as he
Advanced into the silence and made it verbal.
Who can tally the tale of his words? A lifetime
Would barely suffice for their repetition;
If you merely printed all his commas the result
Would be a very large volume, and the number of times
He said “thank you” or “very little sugar, please,”
Would stagger the imagination. There were also
Witticisms, platitudes, and statements beginning
“It seems to me” or “As I always say.”
Consider the courage in all that, and behold the man
Walking into deep silence, with the ectoplastic
Cartoon’s balloon of speech proceeding
Steadily out of the front of his face, the words
Borne along on the breath which is his spirit
Telling the numberless tale of his untold Word
Which makes the world his apple, and forces him to eat.

                             



                                     
ADVICE TO A PROPHET

Richard Wilbur

When you come, as you soon must, to the streets of our city,   
Mad-eyed from stating the obvious,
Not proclaiming our fall but begging us
In God’s name to have self-pity,

Spare us all word of the weapons, their force and range,   
The long numbers that rocket the mind;
Our slow, unreckoning hearts will be left behind,   
Unable to fear what is too strange.

Nor shall you scare us with talk of the death of the race.   
How should we dream of this place without us?—
The sun mere fire, the leaves untroubled about us,   
A stone look on the stone’s face?

Speak of the world’s own change. Though we cannot conceive   
Of an undreamt thing, we know to our cost
How the dreamt cloud crumbles, the vines are blackened by frost,   
How the view alters. We could believe,

If you told us so, that the white-tailed deer will slip   
Into perfect shade, grown perfectly shy,
The lark avoid the reaches of our eye,
The jack-pine lose its knuckled grip

On the cold ledge, and every torrent burn
As Xanthus once, its gliding trout
Stunned in a twinkling. What should we be without   
The dolphin’s arc, the dove’s return,

These things in which we have seen ourselves and spoken?   
Ask us, prophet, how we shall call
Our natures forth when that live tongue is all
Dispelled, that glass obscured or broken

In which we have said the rose of our love and the clean   
Horse of our courage, in which beheld
The singing locust of the soul unshelled,
And all we mean or wish to mean.

Ask us, ask us whether with the worldless rose   
Our hearts shall fail us; come demanding   
Whether there shall be lofty or long standing   
When the bronze annals of the oak-tree close.
                     




EPILOGUE

Robert Lowell

Those blessèd structures, plot and rhyme—
why are they no help to me now
I want to make
something imagined, not recalled?
I hear the noise of my own voice:
The painter’s vision is not a lens,

it trembles to caress the light.
But sometimes everything I write   
with the threadbare art of my eye
seems a snapshot,
lurid, rapid, garish, grouped,
heightened from life,
yet paralyzed by fact.
All’s misalliance.
Yet why not say what happened?
Pray for the grace of accuracy
Vermeer gave to the sun’s illumination
stealing like the tide across a map
to his girl solid with yearning.
We are poor passing facts,
warned by that to give
each figure in the photograph
his living name.

Brains Are Not to Be Wasted



Yes, there was an oil painting and mountain goats (sculptures, not the band, which I don't hate but strongly meh), the artist claimed copyright and demanded the piece be withdrawn. Here's good news - fucking blooger won't allow c/ping this morning, neither alt-c/alt-v crtl-c/ctrl-v or right clicking mouse. Actually, it pastes it so the code can be seen when composing is open to html but it doesn't appear in wysiwyg or when the preview post is viewed. Oh, and I keep getting a pink banner across the top telling me some unspecified error occurred which may or not fuck up the post. Oh, and link button isn't working, so today's links - and dang, they are the best links ever - tomorrow, maybe, I may not have a choice. Fuck this. Have a song, a typed-out poem, a song.





Jl 17 1961

Charles Olson

                   as John Burke

          read the comics

               at the City Council

               table saying

          when you guys have played

          long enough there's no use

          of my wasting my

          time:  brains

          are not to be

               wasted





OH! I don't think he reads this blog since I pissed him off in a comments squabble over Bradley Manning a year or two ago, but Happy Birthday Elric! Hey! he reads your blog, feel free to post the below over there if you want.


2013/02/27

Rarely Has a Large or Distant Expedition Ever Succeeded in Its Object




I don't think I did last year but for years on this shitty blog I ran a sidebar widget countdown clock posted months ahead of United's season opener. This season's opener is this Saturday at 8:00 in Houston, no clock. I give a fuck, I give as much of a fuck relative to how much I've always given a fuck now as I always have, it's not the quantity of fuck I have it's the quality of fuck I have. Proportionately, I give the same fuck about United versus everything else not Me and Mine now as then. Home opener, as ad says, is March 9 at the new starting time for home games 7:05, the motherfuckers, stealing a half hour of my weekend daylight, and there are mid-afternoon and late-afternoon starts, the motherfuckers, I don't need the dark after the game, I want the fucking sunlight before the game. It pisses me off, more than the shitty beer selection that awaits me at the stadium. It is a sad state that proportionately I give the same fuck about United versus everything else not Me and Mine now as then. As for predictions, last March when United had the two Balkans I thought mid-table, maybe squeak in to MLS's rinkydink playoffs - United finished with third highest points (which should get them into CONCACAF's Champions League, but because MLS runs a rinkydink unbalanced schedule and a rinkydink playoff system, finishing third in a table of nineteen teams gets you friendlies against Everton on its couldn't give-a-fuck summer North American tour). This season, without the Balkans, with System Saint Benny in place and his choices of players to deploy, they'd better do well because Hamid and Kitchen will be in Europe by next January (and in Brazil Summer of 2014). Because I believe - and all anyone talks about anywhere at any time is belief and its belief in belief and its belief about belief (I believe in typing the same word unto foreign unfamiliarity while still believing in its sound as an English word, it's what I do here, how successfully YMMV) - because I believe United's window of opportunity, at least the DeRossario and Kitchen and Hamid window, closes after this season, I'm hoping to increase both the quality of my fuck and the quantity of my fuck re: United versus everything else not Me and Mine. YES! I know yesterday was Frank Bridge's 134th birthday:





  • To celebrate today's suspension of documenting the droning arrgh, a return to bulletpoints.
  • There is never a suspension of saying, Fuck Blooger, Fuck Google. Hey, is there anyone out there I can trust who has the skills to look at this shitty blog's code and fix whatever it is I broke when I copy/pasted the word knez in the original Cyrillic into the description field? I cannot change anything about the template. It drives me nuts at least one night a week.
  • Banned performance enhancing drugs in literary competitions.
  • On first readings.
  • Elegance in elegy.
  • I confess again I am not a short story person - never have been - no doubt in part because while I'm capable of writing shitty short stories I've not the organization skills necessary to write a shitty novel (or the belief that I'd be able to finish the shitty novel without deploying what annoys me about short stories, the epiphany that wraps things up) - so here is Dan and Richard reassuring me my inability to believe in the wonders of George Saunders is not weird.
  • Though, and maybe it was the influence of the woman I was dating more than the stories, I remember liking Elizabeth Bowen's short stories thirty years ago.
  • The 50 ugliest college campuses. College Park is 15th! HEY, Paleo 101, Hampshire's the 2nd ugliest!
  • Hey, Big-C is going to be on Jeopardy this Friday night!




  • Says it was taped in late October, says he made enough to pay for his plane flights, says he'll be at the home opener on the 9th!
  • Keith Waldrop's haunted realism. I dig his poetry (his wife's Rosemary Waldrop's too, use the search box top left, hopefully it will pull up their poems I've posted), and totally unfamiliar with the fiction. Good thing I have access to a university library's collections and consortia and interlibrary loan, I believe in taking advantage of them.
  • Herr Stimmung on Transparency.
  • Trying to imagine in advance what we were never supposed to know.
  • The new Pynchon: The appetites of Thomas Pynchon's legion of fans will be whetted by the news that the cult favourite's forthcoming novel takes place in New York City's hi-tech zone of Silicon Alley.Bleeding Edge, which will be published in America on 17 September this year, will be set in 2001 "in the lull between the collapse of the dotcom boom and the terrible events of September 11", said Pynchon's American publisher Penguin in its 2012 results announcement yesterday. Shazam!
  • This is a fucking poem.
  • Freddie Mercury's chicken dhansak.
  • Fingers, The Juice.
  • Wanna hear a new Replacements track?
  • Holyfuck, I am such a rube for this sound:






MAJESTY

Keith Waldrop

Among other economies, I’m of two
minds, one possessed, the other
a deep peace. Violent trembling
seizes me, launched in the interval.

Enemy of children, of quaint little
things, of jokes and pictures. Enemy
of comic papers and caricatures, of
water-drinking. Too short for tragedy.

Rarely has a large or distant expedition
ever succeeded in its object, as may be
seen in the failure of foreign missions, of
human development, the immediate phenomena.

Sympathy for the victors, who gallantly
perish. Collateral catastrophes, as if they
had a will. The more distinctive visual images
sail too long, relinquish, burst.

The “inner voice” is playing a game. Eagerness
and obstinacy. A mysterious invisible
placed in the mouth. We know too well how
terrible it is to contend against personality.

The whole idyll vanishes. Southward along
a coastline, down among cities. Across the
gulf to the promontory. Probably
astonished. Not without mistrust.

You are now my prisoner. Physically I am
myself. Cultivated living, good manners, rich
food and drink, order and elegance in
my house. Erect military bearing.



2013/02/26

There's One Regular Who Lapses In and Out of Consciousness and He's the Real Reason She Stays




If Bonnie Prince Billy in red beret and pink scarf isn't proof I love and trust you, what is? bullshit social climber faux anti-racism. (UPDATE: Freddie's follow-up to the previous.) My passive aggressive tool of maintaining privilege is Kindness. I give money to save cats, give apples and oranges to beggars on Rockville Pike. I was told last Thursday, I don't got no teeth, I don't want your fucking apple, she was standing at the corner of Nicholson and Rockville (NOT NORTH BETHESDA) Pike. I had a dentist appt yesterday to temp-crown the root canal of a month ago, dentist in building across from Dietles IN ROCKVILLE, NOT NORTH BETHESDA, THERE IS NO NORTH BETHESDA, IT'S ROCKVILLE. Dentist said, eat soup today, I drove to Whole Foods (which could exist in a hypothetical North Bethesda if such a place were possible) a block away, see woman who told me she doesn't want my fucking apple, buy her a small container of Chicken Noodle soup, walk it out to her, she didn't remember me or my apple, she took the soup, said Bless you. VICTORY FOR ME! Kindness, bitches. The killing of Callion Hamblin. The shocking savagery of America's Early History. Shocking only if one never stopped to consider America. Rewards in capitalismPostmodern irony and the appreciation of tits. Whenever I think Obama is failing, I try to remember whose metrics I'm using. The Notebooks of Obama. The long death of the middle brow. Symbols. Why we can't have nice things. Whatever House of Cards is (I know it's a TV show, no idea what about), Jake Backpack ruins it for you! Though I know enough that if your agent comes to you and says I've got a lead role in a made-for-cable series that's perfect for you, I know my leading man Hollywood days are over. Atheist. If an atheist is someone who never believes my leading man Hollywood days are over, no matter how many tickets are sold, that's me. More retro and citiesGula. This is true: I wish I was a born linguist. Ten of the most divisive authors? A short riff on Moby Dick. My newest theory on my reading block is that whatever I'm reading I feel like I should be rereading Moby Dick. Lord Garth. Silliman's always generous litlinks. Blanchot, for those of you who do. Stream the new Yeah Yeah Yeahs' single. I heard the Yeah Yeah Yeahs bed music a Cadillac commercial this past weekend, remember (this is an old gag, forgive me) the outrage at Clapton "selling-out" for his Michelob commercial 30+ years ago? I tweeted about the YYYs' Cadillac commercial yesterday to resounding disinterest except from a Cadillac bot who is now following me. Penderecki. Jim's Stereolab playlist. Wanna hear the second single from Bowie's new album?






THE OBJECTIFIED MERMAID

Matthea Harvey

The photographer has been treating her like a spork all morning. “Wistful mouth, excited tail! Work it, work it!” He has no idea that even fake smiling spreads to her eyes and her tail and there’s nothing she can do about it short of severing her spine. Without asking, the assistant re-sprays her with glycerine. It’s gonna be hell getting all that grease off her scales tonight but she can’t scum up her tank at the bar—its weekly cleanings seem more like monthly these days, and fewer and fewer patrons have been inviting (read: paying) her for a Tankside Mertini and quick feel of her tail. There’s one regular who lapses in and out of consciousness and he’s the real reason she stays. Every once in a while he seems to have forgotten where he is and he looks at her with the kind of wonder she imagines her grandmother inspired when she first risked coming ashore. After an hour under the studio spotlights, she’s starting to smell pretty fishy. Can’t blame it (as she has before) on her standard seaweed bra because this fool of a photographer has her holding two clear fishbowls in front of her breasts so it looks like goldfish are swimming past her nipples. She’s supposed to pretend it tickles. She wants to ask if he’s heard the phrase "gilding the lily" which she recently learned at Land Berlitz. When asked if she’s tired, she lies. A downward spiral means the opposite up here.


2013/02/25

My Shoes Cost More Than Your House




Yes, I'm as old as The Beatles, I don't have to, I don't want to, 99% of Beatles songs I never need hear again, I can listen to any by simply thinking of them, the 1% I still want to hear are George songs.





Holyfuck still. George was born seventy years ago today. I've always deeply, faithfully, loved George, loved ones can vouch. It's not an accident the best Traveling Wilbury song is a George song.




 
What a great fucking song. Also too, Ric Flair is sixty-four today, wooo....





Holiest Day of Egoslavia.


2013/02/24

Rube Reducing His Thought to a Bouillon Cube



                                
In my most pathetic tweet ever since my last (when I mocked - get what a fucking pedant I am - SportsBog's Dan Steinberg for forgetting the Houston Astros are now in the AL West) until my next, I mocked Dan Froomkin praising Paul Krugman last night for an insight most of us had learned by eighth grade, including Dan Froomkin and Paul Krugman. The debate isn't how the world works, we agree how the world works, the debate is the negotiation between you and your complicity. There's a reason I always allude to the (purported) Carlen joke about the difference between assholes and jerks, the first drive too slow, the second too fast, or visa versa. Who am I to mock your current flavor of apostasy, I roll over for material comfort every time, the price I pay is whining to you about it. Hey! I hear Monday is the Highest Holy Day in Egoslavia. True?





Kayfabe, marks, and rubes, remember when this blog's posts were filled with the words kayfabe, marks, and rubes? Here's a list of trees MOCO will permit you to plant within fifteen feet of your curb. Ian Walsh yodels what I've been yodeling for years, back when this blog's post were filled with the words kayfabe, marks, and rubes. Marks and rubes and the kayfabe of sequester. K said not this past Thursday Night Pints but maybe three ago, you've (meaning me) have no right to outrage when you write in shorthand and code and then claim to have written first in code what someone then says in plain English. She emailed me this morning re: Pierce and said, see? Oh dear, pity the drone pilot. Hey! there are some new sites in New Here, check them out. Pynchon, for those of you who do, for those of you who don't but should. Second Ward, El Paso, 1972. Here, have a Stanley Elkin interview from 1974 just tweeted by Paris Review. Here, have a major boatload of links. Yes, tomorrow is the Highest Holy Day of Egoslavia, expect songs, breaking kayfabe, or not.
  



   
WICHITA TRIPTYCH

Stephen Yenser

Sometimes the rain shines
Just when the sun reigns,
And that was the way it is
Beyond those French doors
That late afternoon here
In this mind’s early evening
Where they still fade in
That cool color Polaroid,
Pastel shades of her prom dress,
A bowl of double peonies,
Promising, precocious,
Trying, trying to open.

                          •

Their friend and he were tight
Tight-rope walkers, self-taught
Taut-trope-talkers, stalking
Jamb-up, arm-in-arm
And caroling to lucky stars
Their bars and rebars,
The night a carousel
Of tryst and troth,
Of casual carousals,
Cocky arousals,
Pitching the dark to the dark.
(Streetlight and moth,
Reader, she married both.)

                          •

But then there he was,
In the morning’s mourning,
Soi-disant
Proustian mignon,
Aesthetic ascetic
And Kansas rube
Reducing his thought
To a bouillon cube
That no one hot
Ought ever pore over.  


2013/02/23

His Artificial Heart Gives Him Insomnia




Courtesy of two running nights of insomnia, not only have I proved to myself that Proust is not a soporific (and who is, to my discovered delight, as I might finally have unlocked him, laugh out loud funny), you benefit with a weekend's boatload of links: Deranging America. How many rights have Americans lost? The coming world of killer mini drones. Law and justice in the digital age. Democrats' complicity in political murder. Workplace abuse, racism, unfair firing. Liberal racial hypocrisy. On the above. On vampire's tears. On economic justice. Of course he does. Dilemmas of the rentier class. An essay on abjection. Agamben, for those of you who do. Good question. Drones at home. Perspective, plurality, pragmatism? Are we having fun yet? Always wrong. Enabling opposition? A duh moment in history? Twenty-two tips for dodging drones. Fucking POTUS 16. The week that wasWhere I work, where I have a degree, where I have another degree. I have zero feelings about the basketball team - I was a Maryland fan and hated Hilltop before I graduated to not giving a flying fuck about college basketball. Fifteen great David Foster Wallace quotes. Catoptric tristula. Beckett, for those of you who do. Olson, for those of you who do. Lispector, for those of you who do. Proust, for those of you who do. I do for a couple of days, don't for a few. Melville, for those of you who do. Glück, for those of you who do. On listening to poets. Rhythm - anyone who has talked with me knows I speak with an odd, rushed rhythm, so when I read my poetry out loud to myself it has a different rhythm than I imagine the reader gives it. A fragment of Ibykos translated six ways. Steely Dan albums ranked. I'm always amused at the visceral hatred some friends have towards Steely Dan. Rock and roll as spontaneous paganism. Mining the audio motherlode. Monday is Egoslavia's Highest Holy Day.





HIS HEART
Caroline Knox

His heart keeps him awake while he's asleep.
He listens to his heart while he falls asleep in bed.
His artificial heart gives him insomnia.
As long as I can hear the sound, I know I'm here.

His heart keeps him alive while he's asleep.
My heart helps me to sleep while I'm alive.
Oh, patient, this valentine if for you.

I had no choice. I knew that I was dying.
We are trying to survive. We are standing on the shoulders
of the makers of the heart while we lie on our back in bed.
They walk with their hearts on their sleeves and their noses to the grindstone.
He listens to his heart while he falls asleep at night.

Oh, Valentine, this contraption is for you,
device the sacred, the sacred heart.
It feels heavy to me - it makes a constant whir
which keeps me awake when I'm trying to get to sleep.
It has no heartbeat, only this constant whir.


2013/02/22

Let me start by claiming seared or scalded, walking my aged
ignominy, nothing bores I don't remember dog, my hips worse
me more than arguing any of two week's than hers, I'll
apprehension. ago's images remember every town had duckpin
gah and gah is gone, I'm close bowling, baseball available only by radio.
to shutting down, landlord a calf tattoo Ernie Harwell's
landlord me or me myself. considered then no. died, my youth rest in unease.

Which Loneliness Comes Closest to the Inky Chromatics Inside You?



  
Chopin was born 213 years ago either today or March 1 depending on which calendar you use. You'll neither gain nor lose seven days either way, though some will be happy, some aggrieved, depending. It's my blog so I declare today an Egoslavian High Holy Day because (a) there's another birthday maybe-or-not Egoslavian High Holy Day scheduled for March 1 and (b) thanking my mother for piano lessons and (c) piano practice and (d) forgive me, Glenn Gould, I love love love Chopin, especially the Nocturnes. Love.
   



                 
Yeah, I saw it, I said at Thursday Night Pints, it being the Charles Pierce failed attempt at Obamapostasy - it's not Obama who's bad, it's POTUS that's bad, suddenly inevitably, constitutionally bad. (And Pierce subsequently posted a boilerplate snark against McCain, in case you think his life had changed at his hush-voiced fake apostasy). I said, his argument suggests Obama has no agency just months after scolding me Obama's agency was .06% better than Romney's, my argument that Obama's agency was WAY BETTER than Romney's ability to advance MORE shittiness dismissed by Pierce as dangerously naive and silly. L said, Fuck, you hold a grudge. In December 2012 I bet a pint against ridiculously priced Amber Nyquil I'd not type .06% on this shitty blog in 2013. Oops.





WANT SONG

Lance Larsen

Two musics washing over me, and morning asks,
which loneliness comes closest to the inky
chromatics inside you? How can I answer?
The cricket in the tarantula's cage
chirrs the next world.
Meanwhile, scraps of Chopin float
up the stairs on my wife's trilling fingers
which played me whole
worlds ago, last night, when I was buried in we.


2013/02/21


Everything Turns Away Quite Leisurely from the Disater

W.H. Auden was born 106 years ago today.


 



MUSEE DES BEAUX ARTS


About suffering they were never wrong,
The old Masters: how well they understood
Its human position: how it takes place
While someone else is eating or opening a window or just walking dully along;
How, when the aged are reverently, passionately waiting
For the miraculous birth, there always must be
Children who did not specially want it to happen, skating
On a pond at the edge of the wood:
They never forgot
That even the dreadful martyrdom must run its course
Anyhow in a corner, some untidy spot
Where the dogs go on with their doggy life and the torturer's horse
Scratches its innocent behind on a tree.

In Breughel's Icarus, for instance: how everything turns away
Quite leisurely from the disaster; the ploughman may
Have heard the splash, the forsaken cry,
But for him it was not an important failure; the sun shone
As it had to on the white legs disappearing into the green
Water, and the expensive delicate ship that must have seen
Something amazing, a boy falling out of the sky,
Had somewhere to get to and sailed calmly on.





Some personal history: besides taking classes from Anthony Hecht, I did basic research grunt work for him on his final two books of criticism in exchange for his company, On the Laws of the Poetic Arts and The Hidden Law, a book specifically about Auden's poetry, which Hecht respected deeply. In the process of the research for and conversations with Hecht over years I must have read the majority of Auden's poems at least once, some countless times, some, like the above and below, literally dozens of dozens of times.

Until two years ago or so I hadn't read Auden since Hecht's book went to the publisher in 1992, not because I'd lost my love for Auden but because I was tired of my love for Auden. Serendipity always charms but is double-edged: I rediscovered Auden just when his poetry became fresh and relevant and urgent (to me) again.

EPITAPH ON A TYRANT

Perfection, of a kind, was what he was after,
And the poetry he invented was easy to understand;
He knew human folly like the back of his hand,
And was greatly interested in armies and fleets;
When he laughed, respectable senators burst with laughter,
And when he cried the little children died in the streets.







STOP ALL THE CLOCKS 
Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead,
Put crêpe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good.


2013/02/20

Where Dogs Purr of Elastic




Leos Janacek was not born 110 ten years ago today like one of the birthday lists I use suggested, but seeing his name prompted this post's gag which was then written before I remembered to double-check the birthday list's accuracy, so here we are. A friend is reading Murakami's 1Q84, he knows why I typed this sentence. I read 1Q84 roughly a year ago, I still think about it daily when my eyes have drifted over a page and a half of Proust or Knausgaard or Melville or Pynchon or Gaddis or McElroy or Elkin as I futilely try to engage a novel, one I've never read, one I've read before and loved. The short story experiment I mentioned a couple of weeks ago was a failure. I did devour again Ishiguro's Remains of the Day a few months back, consider pushing ahead of schedule rereadings of When We Were Orphans and Never Let Me Go, I'm sure they would work, but I say no, strangely fearful they would work. It's odd, this disparagement of my rules in service of enforcement of my broken and disparaged rules.





Billy Zoom born 65 years ago today. Let me repeat that. Billy Zoom, born 65 years ago today. When I walk into the living room and Earthgirl is watching MSNBC I grab whatever novel I'm about to fail and keep my mouth shut as I head to another room. It's an outrageWhat the one-percent heard. Royal bodies and the firestorm1988. Rather an attack on one's convictions. Scenes of life at the capital. Rally in Missouri! Struggling to survive: Puerto Rico once, twice. The Purple Line will never be built. Damascus! Towne Crest! My favorite dealer lived in Towne Crest! Boatloads of Blanchot, for those of you who do. Debord, for those of you who do. After abundance. Head in the clouds. Too brilliant to bathe. Lispector short story. New McElroy this summer. James McNew on Yo La Tengo as house band of The American Conservative. Prunella's latest playlist includes Fugazi (YAY!) and Jawbox (YAY!) and Soundgarden (GAAAAAH!). Quick! Poison Ivy was born 65 years ago today.
             



 
As for the bleggalgazing that must be farted before I can do anything else, if only build up new bleggalgas for another bleggalfart: no, no announcement of radical format change or impending hiatus: I like what I do (though I might do more of some stuff, less of other stuff depending on the weather), I don't know that I'm an irredeemable attention slut because I've never tried to not be an attention slut, but I need to write about stuff I can't-won't-don't write about here which I can't do in fair measure if I'm collating and aggregating here, so I might less here, at least for a bit. It doesn't mean I don't love you. Or most of you. If I'm collating and aggregating here I cannot fail more and more often at reading novels, I feel a need to either break through or fail utterly, fail successfully all the way to peace. It doesn't mean I don't love you. Or most of you. Joel Hodgson, one of only a few people younger than me whose birthdays I note, is 53 today.




  
SEASONS OF QUITE

Roddy Lumsden

With refreshments and some modesty and home-drawn maps,
the ladies of the parish are marshaling the plans in hand,
devising the occasions, in softest pencil: the Day of Hearsay,
Leeway Week, the Maybe Pageant, a hustings on the word   
nearby. Half-promised rain roosts in some clouds a mile out,
gradual weather making gradual notes on the green, the well,
the monument, the mayor's yard where dogs purr on elastic.

Everything taken by the smooth handle then, or about to be,
hiatus sharp in humble fashion. A small boy spins one wheel
of an upturned bike, the pond rises, full of skimmed stones
on somehow days, not Spring, not Summer yet. Engagements
are announced in the Chronicle, a nine-yard putt falls short.
Dark cattle amble on the angles of Flat Field. The ladies close
their plotting books and fill pink teacups, there or thereabouts.


2013/02/19

To Make Love, Turn to Page 121. To Die, Turn to Page 172




Got turned on to Foot Village last night by Bodah. I confess it's not a surprise that when I am actually capable of approaching not giving a fuck I rediscover not giving a fuck comes with its own baleful encumbrances, not that I am actually capable of approaching not giving a fuck. Here, one of many things I don't mind giving a fuck about that I don't write about on this blog: The Faculty Senate wishes to express its opposition to a cost reduction measure that puts the burden on staff (including AAPs) and non-tenureline faculty, and therefore on the most vulnerable members of the community, contrary to the values of the University. Austerity, bitches, >>delayed bleggalgazing<<. American exceptionalism. Police stateBanks win again. You win again. System of compromise. Control your local police. Day's workNote to self: when large-scale pot growing in house, don't call police to report burglary of home. Geospatial predictive analysis. The way we kill today. The art of warBleggalgazing comments. Marcus and Markson. Ricouer, for those of you who do. Eight ways to ensure your first novel sucksAshbery talking. Oh, the Rosie photos - we bought a three foot green cat tunnel, photo taken with an iPhone camera set to automatic, I didn't manipulate the image. Why classical music has to be sticky. Gyorgi Kurtag is eighty-seven today, piece below poem.






[SONNET]

Bernadette Mayer

You jerk you didn't call me up
I haven't seen you in so long
You probably have a fucking tan
& besides that instead of making love tonight
You're drinking your parents to the airport
I'm through with you bourgeois boys
All you ever do is go back to ancestral comforts
Only money can get—even Catullus was rich but

Nowadays you guys settle for a couch
By a soporific color cable t.v. set
Instead of any arc of love, no wonder
The G.I. Joe team blows it every other time

Wake up! It's the middle of the night
You can either make love or die at the hands of the Cobra Commander

_________________

To make love, turn to page 121.
To die, turn to page 172.


2013/02/18

I&#39;ve Pressed So Far Way from My Desire that If You Asked Me What I Want I Would, Accepting the Harmonious Completion of the Drift, Say Annihilation, Probably



That's Rosie in a tunnel, shot last night. Abbreviated bleggalgazing - I took a day off, nothing more, thanks for asking. That's not entirely true, I was asked, yes, that's true. Was going to take today off too but in view of the fact that A.R. Ammons was born eighty-seven years ago today and today is an Egoslavian High Holy Day, can't. Use the search box top left of this blog to find many of his poems. All you need know about Obama: the fucker tucks his polo shift into his short pants. Sludge in the hour glass. Your Fucking Washington Post gives Sunday oped inches to Donald Rumsfeld to complain about the elimination of Olympic wrestling. Your Fucking Washington Post gives Sunday oped inches to E.J. Dionne to make an impassioned case that the next pope should be a nun. I say the next pope should be a duck. There is a better chance I will be happy before E.J. Dionne. Blinder leading the blind. History unfolding. The discontents of post-democracy. The logic of surveillance. Of course they are. The Lincoln Myth of Social Mobility. No, I don't make fun of rightwingers much anymore (since I was asked why I don't much anymore over the weekend), though once that was what drew new eyes here, and probably still would. Fabulous heh. Boatloads of links. MOCO seeks to be hip! Lordy, Arsenal losing makes me giddy. Robbie Rogers. Blanchot novella, for those of you who do. Beckett, for those of you who do. Barth, for those of you who do. Quest into the unknown. The problem with anthologies. Well, not the problem, some of many problems.  A Greyhoos playlist. Messiaen. Via Edmond, Mike Watt & The Missingmen cover Wire. Three hours of excellent. Three hours of excellent. Here's Stanley on a balcony from this morning.




CONTINUITY

A.R. Ammons

I've pressed so
far way from
my desire that

if you asked
me what I
want I would,

accepting the harmonious
completion of the
drift, say annihilation,

probably.


2013/02/15

Belief Intransigent After Pursuit




Having followed the playlists for the current Yo La Tengo tour, they vary wildly across their discography with the exception that the first set opens with an acoustic version of the above, the second set opens with an electric, so I expect to hear it twice tonight. *!wOOt!* Yes, there was a Thursday Night Pints last night with a Special Guest Appearance by M, in town for a visit from Boulder, maybe more about it tomorrow or Sunday, though it might suffice to say my answer to M's question of why I no longer long form is I don't know whether I'm capable or not any longer, but I know I'm as tired of splaining the obvious as I expect people are tired of having the obvious splained to them. It happens like this. Basic banalities. My freedom of speechGangster banksters. Prolonged and stormy applause. Propaganda is the enemy of the obviousWinning hearts and minds. The reason I'm so bad at follow-the-leader. I took a Hilltop poli-sci class and Lasch's book on his liberal apostasy, True and Only Heaven, was central text. When meteors strike! Ruin and renewal. Are we getting closer to my Fuck-Me-Jig? The guest Ellen. Overnight guest. Dream in which I meet myselfPrunella's latest playlist. Hey, do a playlist, I'll link to it too. Crumb. A walk with Britten. Goats yelling like humans. I hope Yo La Tengo does at least one Dead cover tonight. Planet said that when people at the Yo La Tengo show she saw last Friday shouted out for the below song, they were sternly told NO!





MONDAY

Lisa Robertson

First all belief is paradise. So pliable a medium. A time not very long. A transparency caused. A conveyance of rupture. A subtle transport. Scant and rare. Deep in the opulent morning, blissful regions, hard and slender. Scarce and scant. Quotidian and temperate. Begin afresh in the realms of the atmosphere, that encompasses the solid earth, the terraqueous globe that soars and sings, elevated and flimsy. Bright and hot. Flesh and hue. Our skies are inventions, durations, discoveries, quotas, forgeries, fine and grand. Fine and grand. Fresh and bright. Heavenly and bright. The day pours out space, a light red roominess, bright and fresh. Bright and oft. Bright and fresh. Sparkling and wet. Clamour and tint. We range the spacious fields, a battlement trick and fast. Bright and silver. Ribbons and failings. To and fro. Fine and grand. The sky is complicated and flawed and we’re up there in it, floating near the apricot frill, the bias swoop, near the sullen bloated part that dissolves to silver the next instant bronze but nothing that meaningful, a breach of greeny-blue, a syllable, we’re all across the swathe of fleece laid out, the fraying rope, the copper beech behind the aluminum catalpa that has saved the entire spring for this flight, the tops of these a part of the sky, the light wind flipping up the white undersides of leaves, heaven afresh, the brushed part behind, the tumbling. So to the heavenly rustling. Just stiff with ambition we range the spacious trees in earnest desire sure and dear. Brisk and west. Streaky and massed. Changing and appearing. First and last. This was made from Europe, formed from Europe, rant and roar. Fine and grand. Fresh and bright. Crested and turbid. Silver and bright. This was spoken as it came to us, to celebrate and tint, distinct and designed. Sure and dear. Fully designed. Dear afresh. So free to the showing. What we praise we believe, we fully believe. Very fine. Belief thin and pure and clear to the title. Very beautiful. Belief lovely and elegant and fair for the footing. Very brisk. Belief lively and quick and strong by the bursting. Very bright. Belief clear and witty and famous in impulse. Very stormy. Belief violent and open and raging from privation. Very fine. Belief intransigent after pursuit. Very hot. Belief lustful and eager and curious before beauty.Very bright. Belief intending afresh. So calmly and clearly. Just stiff with leaf sure and dear and appearing and last. With lust clear and scarce and appearing and last and afresh.


2013/02/14

The Night Had Begun with Barbie Getting Angry at Finding Ken&#39;s Blow Up Doll, Folded and Stuffed Under the Couch




KINKY

Denise Duhamel

They decide to exchange heads.
Barbie squeezes the small opening under her chin
over Ken's bulging neck socket. His wide jaw line jostles
atop his girlfriend's body, loosely,
like one of those novelty dogs
destined to gaze from the back windows of cars.
The two dolls chase each other around the orange Country Camper
 unsure what they'll do when they're within touching distance.
Ken wants to feel Barbie's toes between his lips,
take off one of her legs and force his whole arm inside her.
With only the vaguest suggestion of genitals,
all the alluring qualities they possess as fashion dolls,
up until now, have done neither of them much good.
But suddenly Barbie is excited looking at her own body
under the weight of Ken's face. He is part circus freak,
part thwarted hermaphrodite. And she is
imagining she is somebody else—maybe somebody middle class and ordinary,
maybe another teenage model being caught in a scandal.

The night had begun with Barbie getting angry
at finding Ken's blow up doll, folded and stuffed
under the couch. He was defensive and ashamed, especially about
not having the breath to inflate her. But after a round
of pretend-tears, Barbie and Ken vowed to try
to make their relationship work. With their good memories
as sustaining as good food, they listened to late-night radio
talk shows, one featuring Doctor Ruth. When all else fails,
just hold each other, the small sex therapist crooned.
Barbie and Ken, on cue, groped in the dark,
their interchangeable skin glowing, the color of Band-Aids.
Then, they let themselves go— Soon Barbie was begging Ken
to try on her spandex miniskirt. She showed him how
to pivot as though he was on a runway. Ken begged
to tie Barbie onto his yellow surfboard and spin her
on the kitchen table until she grew dizzy. Anything,
anything
, they both said to the other's requests,
their mirrored desires bubbling from the most unlikely places.




             
I found that gif yesterday on Ken's playlist when he played that Roxy Music song and it made me immediately think of the Duhamel poem and shazam! a shitty blog gag in which I nonetheless insist fine metaphors abound. I bullied Ken. Eradicator. Christ, does Bruce look like Elric. Liberal drone hypocrisy. Schema. Ten years later. This is not an argument. A very practical post. Is this fucking AfghanistanDorner, shootings, socialism. What really happened to Dorner? Boatload of links. BrandingMy future hell. On the stovetop of sleep: I used to think that it was a bad thing to mention dreams in fiction. I’d read an essay by John Leonard, I believe it was, in The New York Times Book Review sometime in the late Seventies, in which he said that dreams in novels were a mistake. But I rejected that notion ages ago. Dreams are part of the truth of life and the job of a book is to feel its way forward through a character’s days and nights. In the book I just finished writing, I included a dream in which my narrator finds an old bicycle horn on a set of subway stairs somewhere near Columbia. Why not? It’s a dream I actually had a few years ago. I've always thought, oh fuck, not another fucking dream when encountering one in a novel. Work on your novel in Bamgier this summerConcrescence of linguistic intentionalityBaudrillard (or not), for those of you who do. Silliman's always generous litlinks. True death-temper. Wildcatters and strip mines, spoil piles. Of course I thought of this song: