2011/08/19

Dandle Us Once Too Often



Gonna be driving that Dodge Durango to Planet's abandonment and back. It's a "monster," said the rent-a-car guy when we picked it up an hour ago. Make sure you drive the speed limit and set the fuel/motor/thingee for economy or you'll get seven miles a gallon, he said. OK, sound advice, though doing the speed limit on the Pennsylvania Turnpike and then I-70 in Ohio - the most speed-trapped road I've ever driven - was the plan.

First emotional hurdle over, Planet saying goodbye to her grandparents, who generously picked up the tab for dinner. When they drive out to see her they can stop at the ancestral hometown of Republic rather than make the through drive. Next weekend I'm buying them a webcam and setting up skype on their computer. Thank you everyone for coming.

Tonight we stay together one last night - we're going to try and help Planet pick a proposed schedule; she must take an Art class re: scholarship, and I think she might as well get the Intro Psych out of the way - then tomorrow we move her into the dorm where she spends her first night after family affairs and distractions, and then Sunday morning there's a big family breakfast, after which we're told at ten by the school to go the fuck away.

Regular programming below opening bit today, photos and stuff tomorrow, Sunday, maybe Monday. I'm curious to see what shows up here Tuesday: I think it won't be the maudlin of this week, though I can't imagine it'll be a return of Look! Obama sucks! but Hey Look! Crackers! except I can, since that's what draws the pings.













PARENTS

William Meredith

What it must be like to be an angel

or a squirrel, we can imagine sooner.



The last time we go to bed good,

they are there, lying about darkness.



They dandle us once too often,

these friends who become our enemies.



Suddenly one day, their juniors

are as old as we yearn to be.



They get wrinkles where it is better

smooth, odd coughs, and smells.



It is grotesque how they go on

loving us, we go on loving them



The effrontery, barely imaginable,

of having caused us. And of how.



Their lives: surely

we can do better than that.



This goes on for a long time. Everything

they do is wrong, and the worst thing,



they all do it, is to die,

taking with them the last explanation,



how we came out of the wet sea

or wherever they got us from,



taking the last link

of that chain with them.



Father, mother, we cry, wrinkling,

to our uncomprehending children and grandchildren.