2013/11/17

The Clouds Were Pretending to Be Clouds When in Fact They Were Overheard Comments Regarding His Recent Behavior





My insomnia and Serendipity brings you the above highlights of a Manchester football club you don't have to hate. Yesterday I saw and at three o'clock this morning remembered and read this Guardian article on FC United of Manchester, who play in the Northern Premier League, the seventh tier of English football. Here's the current table:


1. Skelmersdale 19 13 2 4 41:27 41
2. Chorley 17 12 4 1 39:12 40
3. Fylde 18 10 5 3 41:14 35
4. Worksop 18 11 2 5 55:43 35
5. Marine 20 8 8 4 37:30 32
6. Blyth 20 9 5 6 33:31 32
7. Kings Lynn 19 9 4 6 38:27 31
8. Matlock 19 9 4 6 29:20 31
9. Ilkeston 21 9 4 8 38:30 31
10. Buxton 18 8 5 5 26:20 29
11. United of Manche... 17 8 4 5 34:21 28
12. Grantham 19 8 4 7 36:32 28
13. Rushall 17 8 4 5 25:29 28
14. Whitby 20 6 9 5 32:31 27
15. Barwell 21 7 5 9 30:35 26
16. Ashton 18 6 6 6 33:30 24
17. Nantwich 20 6 5 9 32:29 23
18. Witton 17 6 3 8 29:27 21
19. Frickley 20 5 6 9 28:33 21
20. Trafford 18 6 3 9 27:34 21
21. Stamford 19 5 3 11 28:44 18
22. Stocksbridge 20 3 4 13 34:56 13
23. Stafford 19 2 3 14 20:52 9
24. Droylsden 18 0 2 16 12:70 2


About an hour ago blogfriend Hamish Mack retweeted the above video highlights of yesterday's FCUM v Frickley game which includes a spectacular own goal, so Serendipity must be honored with this post.

While I'm here, have Maggie's weekly links and { feuilleton }'s weekly links and Joyce dug Defoe and hear Anne Lauterbach read her poems and this lovely piece on the death of a cat and sanctuary and RIP Doris Lessing (who I read dutifully decades ago, it wasn't love it wasn't hate) and Hilary Mantel's review of Lessing's autobiography.






STAY

Franz Wright

The clouds were pretending to be clouds
when in fact they were overheard comments
regarding his recent behavior, but muffled

as though heard through a wall. Unlike
the personal messages being conveyed to him
in the form of asides by people on TV, chilling

in their clam and unequivocal malevolence.
In the garden the roses were opening,
chanting in unison, My name is Mary and

you really don't want to come near me,
not if I was the last little swastika nympho
on earth, and what was that supposed to mean!

Then there the others who lived there.
(Was he living there now?) They were indifferent
to him with the very striking exception of

two friends. He could tell they were friends
by the marked improvement in their mood
when his was at its most truly desolate.



2013/11/16

Secretly Each Is Devoted to the Conviction that It Is Irreparably Different from All the Rest - in Fact, It Is This in Which They Are Most Fundamentally Alike











LAMP

Franz Wright

Evening street of midnight blue with here and there a lighted window. Of the at home, or possible not. Concentrically into the air whose blue sphere gradually gives way to pure lethal space, wave after wave of a pale cadmium yellow expanding into emptiness and past the blood-brain barrier. Lamp manufactured unwittingly in the image of its make the mind, which goes on emitting dim rays from its frail bulb of skull, from its insignificant and evidently random sector of an infinite place all its own; mind illuminating not much: seen, say, from its own frozen and excommunicated Pluto, it is nearly indistinguishable from any other. All minds are pretty much the same, they'll tell you so themselves, but secretly each is devoted to the conviction that it is irreparably different from all the rest - in fact, it is this in which they are most fundamentally alike.





  

THE UNFOLLOWING 51, 56, 62, 71, 72

Lyn Hejinian

51

Afloat in a glass-bottom boat, I see into the sea—a miniscule emerald 
     memento
That the strongest social bonds are forged by language doesn’t nullify
             the power that dancing around the puppet ef
figies of the men
             in power has
On the solemn face of the glinting belly is a button baby
You have to know how to roll on the horizon
Followers follow, possibles possibulate, coruscations consider, blood

             coagulates
An allegory is a depiction of something that can’t be depicted
Mathias Madrid thrusts his
fist toward his face in a mirror, Millicent
             Malcolm pets a faithful falcon on a perch, Margaret Mason
             makes fig jam to serve on cold toast with hard cheese
The pyrotechnical expanse, lacking azure, makes do with blatant

             blackness, unspoken light
Winter’s cover’s curled back by adjectives—whacking winter’s roadside

             cover
Stained owls and up over the ill rabbits they
fly
Several hours go by but hours are impossible to perceive
I market, am marketed, mark, remark
We walk down a street under windows that let in noise that might

             prompt someone asleep in the room to dream of drummers,
             flautists, a man on stilts with a tuba, a sextet of giggling girls
What is it ghosts wonder?

   
56

It should not be strange to be a woman rewarded
Letters click as they wander, shift as they ascend, their altitudes attain

             autobiography
Next you are like dry steps’ passing sound and fall, and then you are

             like sweetened grapefruit
Everything applies in the hyper-patterning that retrospect
             attempts and to which the irreverent response is “How
             splay!”

In the small houses of the children in the house there are always
             complex simplicities and one was a vast pink stuffed
             equine thing called Star

Wet Brahms
Revocation of harm
By moving from window to window and carefully recording at

             each what we see, we...*
It is time you were told of the time I failed to defend the bull and
             indeed rejoiced in its murder
This is
not hypocritical!
The statue at its fullest is emptiest of meaning
She speaks to another
not about sex but about a particular game
             of truth
Sonorousness facilitates the descent of sunny motes from the

             ponderosa
Dancers have
fleas—or, shall we say that fleas live on the planet
             of dancers?
   
62

Into the disordered shortening of a circle comes this little fury,
              this abdicated panic, this dirty Venus, this resemblance
              to nothing we know of the dead

Sky simultaneous bud, cavity contemporaneous slight
And from the tree a ripe peach falls and a puff of dust rises,

              gently circles, drifts, spreads, holds its shape, dissipates,
              and settles under the tree again and on the weeds nearby
Once there was a woman I’ll name another day and in her care

              were eight well-matched strong pelicans who flew low
              over the sea in careful con
figurations that brought her
              aesthetic pleasure and more
fish than she or they could
              eat

Life is rife with erasure and time is rich with delay
Immediately the eater spots some defects (bits of meat, scraps of green)
No, I did
not forget the sad vagrant shuffling about in his red
              speckled secrecy and I will never do so again!
You’ve been boasting of your cantaloupe pottage, you’ve provided

              us with thin toast, your glory increases all about you
Hush—ssshh—what is it?

The ancestor wandered toward the horizon, he craved
              recognition, but eons went by and he landed in a circus,
              there being no other work for a man from the gloom of
              origins

Cousins are composite, constructed, compared
Quick, lively, assembled ripples monitor, mosquitoes spill, and

              the children dine on candy
The sky is another point, this time of ambiguous blue
Why didn’t I think of that?

      
71

A grasshopper singing of death laughs long—as if a heavy-
             hearted granny spoke a light word

A shadow scuds over glass, the glass stands still
Insects seethe and they say
that is the dream of language but
             what is language if not what is threading through the
             veins of an insect’s wings
What does it mean to say “now” now, as now surfaces in a gesture,

             as of a person pushing his eyeglasses up toward his brow
Our luggage is stacked sky-high, we are wearing twenty layers of

             clothes, every utterance is symphonic
I’ve never made curtains for these windows, stabbed by the mid-

             morning light
I pass with a broom, standing with a hose in my hand and my

             thumb against the nozzle
The loops of time droop, fall slack—and someone steps out of

             those that were his or hers, hers or his, his and hers, his
             and his, hers and hers—is it right, then, that we are left
             to hurtle alone

The girls danced in dead light, the cadavers lay in live light—but
             as for those girls, men with mouths like mare vaginas
             watched them

Every rough rupture demands elasticity of the imagination
The silver river is irreversible but you attentively watch its mouth
What you write achieves its independence though you are nimble,

             arrogant, sly and wise.
That is how you spend the day, which is itself a powerful force

             and raises the significant question “How did you get
             here?”
All suffering is in the egg—now suck it out of its shell and spit

             it away

72

Collective longer literature appeals to cloud variants over a
             crowd

See the gang, going to Alabama, tonguing cones, singing waka
             wasa bong

The robust thrush it is, stately as royalty, common as a
             pickpocket at a concert

I will not, I say, rest, I say, rotate
Let’s go now to the very next neologism and term it

             fragmentarily
Desperate he was to cry out and couldn’t, to say what he knew

             and know it
This takes adults—and very far indeed
The saxophonist breathes, takes a breath, inhales, gasps
Armadillo, yellow shovel, and empty oval
I sprawl across a bed strewn with breadcrumbs, ah ha!
At echo’s edge, a rock wall rises, a monument to leisure
The mourner chortles, she’s like a clown with sandpaper, at

             sorrow’s involuntary humor
Her remarks, his remarks, their remarks, our remarks, my

             remarks, your remarks betray
Oh there is a blading in this gentle bend



2013/11/15

[Knowing No One Is Watching]

Knowing no one is watching
doesn't prevent me pretending
that someone is watching

That no one is watching
after watching me scream Look at Me!
means I have been judged trained and broken

I buy the devices
spend hundreds a month
on my surveillance
knowing no one is watching

*

Have I made my troll apoplectic yet
today I was asked, I was asked
what's a carrot steak (at a pun

gone wanting), I said $25
a poker hand, $15 blackjack
I tell myself the Xth time

my ink voice isn't empty
but dried. Wait, he got the jokes
he says, my digital New Zealand
acquaintance who might be a bot.

Dig Me a Chamber of Preparedness





Woke up with that in my head.

Also too, Berger was on for three hours yesterday. For decades I wouldn't listen to music I pejoratively labeled Death Metal and dismissed as shitty, what a dumb motherfucker, fine metaphors abound. Suggestions solicited. I'd ask Randal but he's passed out from huffing group study room dry-ink markers to ease the strain of uckingfay acultyfay blaming Randal for the uckingfay actultyfay's library ineptitude and their consequent privileged rage and is sleeping it off in an outside book-bin.






  • Learning how to die in the Anthropocene.
  • James Scott reviews Jared Diamond: It’s a good bet a culture is in trouble when its best-known intellectuals start ransacking the cultural inventory of its ancestors and its contemporary inferiors for tips on how to live. The malaise is all the more remarkable when the culture in question is the modern American variant of Enlightenment rationalism and progress, a creed not known for self-doubt or failures of nerve. The deeper the trouble, the more we are seen to have lost our way, the further we must go spatially and temporally to find the cultural models that will help us. 
  • Sensing war.
  • The difference between riots and demonstrations.
  • What Lambert says. And Earthgirl has had her obamapostasy completely without my assistance, I haven't been talking about the clusterfuck in real life, not just not here. Even my Hilltop obamaphile friend and staunch Obama defender who doesn't want a nom-de-blog (and dude, Hilltop obamaphile friend and staunch Obama defender is a nom-de-blog, and a fucking long one) is edging towards his. Mind, for both, it's the incompetence driving the apostasy.
  • Mass surveillance: not just the NSA. 
  • All across America, spit takes. And Weldon's alive!
  • Zadie Smith's review of Knausgaard and Tao Lin reminds me why I don't can't won't read any of the three of them, he says truthfully but gratuitously and snarkily.
  • Wrapped in cellophane. 
  • Today's poem by Susan Wheeler. It's not love yet but infatuation seems unavoidable.
  • Bill Callahan profile and interview.
  • Below the poem Anna Calvi, it's not love yet but infatuation seems unavoidable.
  • Plumptuous flustration.
  • Hejinian!
  • Was reminded of both the top and below pieces by Donna's Gateway to Joy, I listened to this show a month of so ago, woke up with the above though she actually segued from the Kubisch/Plessi into the Hodell. If you like the music I've been listening too lately I strongly recommend working your way through Donna's playlists.






ALPHABET'S END

Susan Wheeler

So I'll speak ill of the dead. A was crooked,
planting the small left finger of the raccoon in the upholstery
before he sold the car. B made certain to point out Celia's
bewildered look before her pink slip came in the flimsy institution.
In the videos of C, a jejune overwhelmed the cast.


D built dollhouses. Even Lonnie down at Shell
found him less a man for it, the night they went off to see the stock
cars break. I wanted E's hair, but by the end it was no more. F
refused alms, pulling the man up by his shirt in the street, and
G sought rewards. Marybeth said H fondled her for sport.


Now you, I, Smokey, hell
bent on a village version of Club 21, embarrassed by our attentions.

Mistrust it was. Dig me a chamber of preparedness.



2013/11/14

Some Say Get Over It, But There You Are, Surrounding It




  • No one has yet claimed the three free tickets for Bonnie Prince Billy a week from tonight at Rams Head. If you're in DC/Baltimore area, even if you can't or don't want to go, if you have friends who are Will Oldham fans ask them if they want them. They are very good seats, not to close to stage, not too far from stage, would be a shame for them to go to waste. Will bump again next week if no one claims in meantime, not going to bang this daily.
  • Glad you're waking up to this.
  • Caught myself: last night had cheap easy snarky link to clusterfuck, this morning purged the motherfucker. 
  • UPDATE! Fiasco by design. What I was going to snark: the theory that the Obamacare clusterfuck was designed for maximum clusterfuck to undermine the principle that power has an obligation for the well-being of its subjects. So yes, same old song.
  • From the Guardian's football rumor column: Zlatan Ibrahimovic is a target for Chelsea and Manchester City but might turn down both to go and play in the MLS, because. Meanwhile Clint Dempsey might be on his way back from America, with Tottenham, Everton and Aston Villa all eyeing the Seattle Sounders forward. Tottenham have first refusal. Dempsey for Ibrahimovic does not seem like a fair trade. Hummina, no, but DC United have first draw - in theory, this is motherfucking MLS after all, if Ibrahimovic wants to come to MLS (and he doesn't want to come to MLS) he will tell MLS where he will play.
  • Like I need a reason to hate Arsenal.
  • Every bit of this friendly inconsequence is meant merely to preface his intention for writing at all.
  • Insomnia, Lacan, Beckett.
  • Today's edition of Good Thing I Have Access to a University Library's Stacks.
  • What this blog would look like right now if its Apply to Template button worked.
  • UPDATE! Isn't everyone here a phony?
  • Does it matter if a poem that seems autobiographical is actually fiction?
  • What is a poet?
  • Britten's Curlew River, plus other great stuff.
  • Cornelius Cardew's piano music.
  • Lots of Ramones, including previously unheard interview.
  • Listened to Ghédalia Tazartès last night, the album Transports, can't find any on youtube, have these instead.







FOR ONE WHOSE LOVE HAS GONE

Brenda Hillman

      There was a crack
    in ecstasy; it split the oak
with flameless fire.
A raptor left good bones
in the divided tree (the spine?
  of a mouse?) & then flew off
     for a muffled sanctuary . . .


Some say get
     over it
, but there you are,
surrounding it. Slant sun
     shines in. Bring it along,
bone-reader, bring the banquet.



2013/11/13

By Insisting on Love We Spoil It










TEAR IT DOWN

Jack Gilbert

We find out the heart only by dismantling what
the heart knows. By redefining the morning,
we find a morning that comes just after darkness.
We can break through marriage into marriage.
By insisting on love we spoil it, get beyond
affection and wade mouth-deep into love.
We must unlearn the constellations to see the stars.
But going back toward childhood will not help.
The village is not better than Pittsburgh.
Only Pittsburgh is more than Pittsburgh.
Rome is better than Rome in the same way the sound
of raccoon tongues licking the inside walls
of the garbage tub is more than the stir
of them in the muck of the garbage. Love is not
enough. We die and are put into the earth forever.
We should insist while there is still time. We must
eat through the wildness of her sweet body already
in our bed to reach the body within the body.



How Astonishing It Is that Language Can Almost Mean, and Frightening that It Does Not Quite




Jack Gilbert died a year ago today. If I played a Sillyass Deserted Island Five Game with poets, etc... Here's last year's post and all the poems that were posted in the following days:

Jack Gilbert has died. I posted four of his poems two days ago here. Below are four more. Here is an article on Gilbert posted just yesterday. Here is a profile. Here is a review of Gilbert's Collected Poems from earlier this year: make it your Giftmas present to yourself. Here's Harriet.  Here is the Paris Review interview. If you type Jack Gilbert into the search box top left many more of his poems will appear. UPDATE: three more poems for Wednesday here.







HARD WIRED

Jack Gilbert

He is shamelessly happy to feel the thing
inside him. He labors up through the pines
with firewood and goes back down again.
Winter on the way. Roses and blackberries
finished, and the iris gone before that.
The peas dead in the garden and the beans
almost done. His tomatoes are finally ripe.
The thing inside him is like that, and will
come back. An old thing, a dangerous one.
Precious to him. He meets the raccoon often
in the dark and ends up throwing stones.
The raccoon gets behind a tree. Comes again,
cautious and fierce. It stops halfway.
They stand glaring in the faint starlight.



RELATIVE PITCH

Jack Gilbert

I was carrying supplies back up the mountain
when I heard it, the laughter of children
so strange in that starkness.
Pushed past the brush and scrub willow
and saw a ruined farmhouse and girls
in ragged clothes. They had rigged a swing
and were playing as though they were happy,
as if they did not know any better.
Having no way to measure, I thought,
remembering the man in Virginia who found
a ruined octagonal mansion
and repaired it perfectly. For months
he walked through the grand empty rooms
wondering what they were like.
Until he found a broken chair in the attic
and re-created the colors and scale. Discovered
maybe the kind of life the house was.
Strangers leave us poems to tell of those
they loved, how the heart broke, to whisper
of the religion upstairs in the dark,
sometimes in the parlor amid blazing sunlight,
and under trees with rain coming down
in August on the bare, unaccustomed bodies.



TO SEE IF SOMETHING COMES NEXT

Jack Gilbert

There is nothing here at the top of the valley.
Sky and morning, silence and dry smell
of heavy sunlight on the stone everywhere.
Goats occasionally, and the sound of roosters
in the bright heat where he lives with the dead
woman and purity. Trying to see if something
comes next. Wondering whether he has stalled.
Maybe, he thinks, it is like the No-: whenever
the script says dances, whatever the actor does next
is a dance. If he stands still he is dancing.



A BRIEF FOR THE DEFENSE

Jack Gilbert

Sorrow everywhere. Slaughter everywhere. If babies
are not starving someplace, they are starving
somewhere else. With flies in their nostrils.
But we enjoy our lives because that's what God wants.
Otherwise the mornings before summer dawn would not
be made so fine. The Bengal tiger would not
be fashioned so miraculously well. The poor women
at the fountain are laughing together between
the suffering they have known and the awfulness
in their future, smiling and laughing while somebody
in the village is very sick. There is laughter
every day in the terrible streets of Calcutta,
and the women laugh in the cages of Bombay.
If we deny our happiness, resist our satisfaction,
we lessen the importance of their deprivation.
We must risk delight. We can do without pleasure,
but not delight. Not enjoyment. We must have
the stubbornness to accept our gladness in the ruthless
furnace of this world. To make injustice the only
measure of our attention is to praise the Devil.
If the locomotive of the Lord runs us down,
we should give thanks that the end had magnitude.
We must admit there will be music despite everything.
We stand at the prow again of a small ship
anchored late at night in the tiny port
looking over to the sleeping island: the waterfront
is three shuttered cafés and one naked light burning.
To hear the faint sound of oars in the silence as a rowboat
comes slowly out and then goes back is truly worth
all the years of sorrow that are to come.



THE ABNORMAL IS NOT COURAGE

Jack Gilbert

The Poles rode out from Warwaw against the German
tanks on horses. Rode knowing, in sunlight, with sabers.
A magnitude of beauty that allows me no peace.
And yet this poem would lessen that day. Question
the bravery. Say it's not courage. Call it a passion.
Would say courage isn't that. Not at it's best.
It was impossible, and with form. They rode in sunlight.
Were mangled. But I say courage is not the abnormal.
Not the marvelous act. Not MacBeth with fine speeches.
The worthless can manage in public, for the moment.
It is too near the whore's heart: the bounty of impulse,
and the failure to sustain even small kindness.
Not the marvelous act, but the evident conclusion of being.
Not strangeness, but a leap forward of the same quality.
Accomplishment. The even loyalty. But fresh.
Not the Prodigal Son, not Faustus. But Penelope.
The thing steady and clear. Then the crescendo.
The real form. The culmination. and the exceeding.
Not the surprise. The amazed understanding. The marriage,
not the month's rapture. Not the exception. The beauty
that is of many days. Steady and clear.
It is the normal excellence, of long accomplishment.



2013/11/12

Sixty-Eight Today




    
No, I didn't forget. Been on the soundtrack since forever, including some of the best and many of the worse nights of my life. It's not love, it's I'd trust him to futilely search for dry firewood with me on the fifth day of rain on a shitty backpacking trip when everyone else is in the tent bitching.




   
*

praying for a nerve cell with all the soul of my chemical reactions and going right on down where the eye sees only traces




Found that last night. I'd completely forgot about Dara until Biblioklept wrote about The Lost Scrapbook a few weeks ago. I went to find my copy and couldn't, was afraid it might have been accidentally scooped up in a bookshelves purge some months ago. The above is a first edition, I bought it immediately after reading the glowing review excerpted on the back by Richard Powers. Book arrived, I left it on the floor, and Katie






(the one on the right) chewed and slobbered on it. I put it on a bookshelf to dry out and there it remained, buried behind others, until discovered last night when looking for something else. Read twenty pages, I know myself too well enough to not express a judgment to myself yet*, but... the hold-up scene early is promising. What else I want to note is Richard Powers: He hasn't a novel since 2009's Generosity. His 2006 Echo Maker I've called the best 911 novel I've read. Mention of possible future Nobel for Powers used to circulate. I haven't thought of or heard anything about a new Powers in two, three years. Wiki suggests there's a 2014 novel on tap.














HYMN

A.R. Ammons

I know if I find you I will have to leave the earth
and go on out
     over the sea marshes and the brant in bays
and over the hills of tall hickory
and over the crater lakes and canyons
and on up through the spheres of diminishing air
past the blackset noctilucent clouds
           where one wants to stop and look
way past all the light diffusions and bombardments
up farther than the loss of sight
    into the unseasonal undifferentiated empty stark
And I know if I find you I will have to stay with the earth
inspecting with thin tools and ground eyes
trusting the microvilli sporangia and simplest
     coelenterates
and praying for a nerve cell
with all the soul of my chemical reactions
and going right on down where the eye sees only traces
You are everywhere partial and entire
You are on the inside of everything and on the outside
I walk down the path down the hill where the sweetgum
has begun to ooze spring sap at the cut
and I see how the bark cracks and winds like no other bark
chasmal to my ant-soul running up and down
and if I find you I must go out deep into your
    far resolutions

and if I find you I must stay here with the separate leaves



2013/11/11

More Sixty Partridge





Was thinking of posting some more Partridge songs since (twelve are not enough) they're in my head and then friend Greyhoos just sent an email with three requests and thoughts so: the top and bottom are from me, the three below and the words in blue are from him:







Probably my favorite cover tune by any band, ever. (Or at least in the top 3.)

I've been revisiting XTC a lot these past few years, after many years of giving them little thought or time. Giving the occasion to drag out the old records, hunt down all the others I'd never bothered with. At some point just realized that Partridge was perhaps one of the best, most unique & peculiar songwriters of his era. Also, one of the most unlikely r&r frontmen, in many traditional respects. As well as -- in the band's early days -- the most delightfully eccentric vocalizers.







What I said about vocalizations. Total linguistic breakdown -- full-on Dada sound poetry a la Schwitters's "Ursonate."

Simon Reynolds has a long-standing gripe about bands from his home country, that they historically/often tend to frontload things at the expense of the rhythm section, the latter of which are usually weak and underdeveloped (in comparison to their American peers). Be that as it may, I'm thinking the early years of XTC when Terry Chambers was behind the kit would have to count as a major exception.

I've also taken an interest in how fond Partridge was of recording. Check the tracking and mixing for "Living Through Another Cuba." Wonderfully, dizzyingly batshit, it is. 







I love the early stuff, I love the middle stuff, I love the late stuff, but of late I find myself listening most to Nonesuch, my if I can only have one album in that sillyass game.



Sixty Today





Happy Birthday Andy Partridge. XTC (and side-projects) are in the innermost circle of acts for one of the two rotating spots in my Sillyass Deserted Island Five Game (and on mandatory playlist for trips to and around and from Ohio to visit Planet). Twelve Partridge song from twelve XTC albums in this post, eleven below the fold, nothing below the fold but Andy Partridge songs, for links and poems scroll down through yesterday and Saturday please.